anyways..
damn man!
the shits weak!
haha
but good..
since -
blehitsdano (11:44:33 PM): november 12, 2006
10:15ish to 10:35ish
virgin no more
yeah i im'd myself after i did it!
ill have that frever. hahaha yeah im an idiot..
but anyways....
since that day..
i didnt go 2 weeks w.o college level hooking up..
my classification: hs hook up - making out maybe a lil more
college hook up - sex. haha
so yeah..
i couldnt go 2 weeks w.o doin the dirt and i had no remose that it was with 2 diff. people..i didnt
basically becuase i waited to long to lose it..i didnt care when/where/who i got it from..thats exaggerated a little. but yeah..sometimes i'd do it with those 2 ppl in the same week...Wowzer..thats..uncool to me..i aint no damn player or gigalo.. but shit i was man...its a shame.
well while all that was goin on..things got plain..it was just sex with the same 2 ppl..and it was that way from nov to march...
the Beginning of march i did the Worse thing not EVERR but..just not me..
this female pushes me to hangout... soo...im gona post the convo..
whats the crossstreets?
yo
call me and tell me
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From: Heavy D(an)
Date: Feb 26, 2007 6:04 PM
schure!
424 Martha st, 89110 ! hit it uuup
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From:
Date: Feb 26, 2007 6:01 PM
well you wanna go now? or in like 1/2 hour
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From: Heavy D(an)
Date: Feb 26, 2007 5:57 PM
hahhaha your killin me doll. but ill let you drive my car..it isnt that far from my casa. and ive' no life! so when your free. im Prolly free. haha..unless im hangin with someone. but i dono! cuz i dont plan much..
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From:
Date: Feb 26, 2007 5:53 PM
we could do that... can i drive your car lol.. but i dunno where you live...
plus im working random times all this weekend...
:(
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From: Heavy D(an)
Date: Feb 26, 2007 5:49 PM
haha yeah dude..theres one like 30 seconds away from my house! you should come over here and we'll drive there..ya? haha just kiddin..if your not down then that's NOO prob. what about this weekend!?
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From:
Date: Feb 26, 2007 5:47 PM
hey i am close to that
how far do you live from there?
..you should just drive to my house and we can roll in 1 car..not that a mile or so makes much of a difference anyways lol
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From: Heavy D(an)
Date: Feb 26, 2007 5:43 PM
its on trop n maryland..
i just dont wana drive down there again.
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From:
Date: Feb 26, 2007 5:37 PM
you should come with me to get popeyes... or something.. as soon as i figure out where it is..
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From: Heavy D(an)
Date: Feb 26, 2007 5:30 PM
theres a popeyes right by your house..i just forgot where
and yeah. theyre the samee!
and i really dono what im eating..i kinda want chicken though
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From:
Date: Feb 26, 2007 5:27 PM
no they arent..lol...
hmm..where is popeyes anyways?
what are you eating?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Heavy D(an)
Date: Feb 26, 2007 5:25 PM
strips/fingers..same thing luv
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From:
Date: Feb 26, 2007 5:23 PM
popeyes has chicken fingers?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Heavy D(an)
Date: Feb 26, 2007 5:15 PM
dude popeyes!!!!!!
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From:
Date: Feb 26, 2007 5:07 PM
i really want some chicken fingers for some reason... do you kno of any deli's that are open still..
or anywhere with chicken fingers lol
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Heavy D(an)
Date: Feb 26, 2007 4:53 PM
ah
same same..and hungry too..
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From:
Date: Feb 26, 2007 4:43 PM
nothing really
i just got home too...im hungry but..
im probably gonna take a nap or something
life is kinda boring right at the molment
thats how it went down..i didnt want to at 1st..but i gave in..im nice..
so she came over..at like 6 30? and we ate n shit at my house..
and we hung..
10 o clock rolls around....
my parents go to bed around 10, so the house is pretty much mine man...bleh
so i say to her..whelp if you gots shit ta do tomoro..yi know. i dun' wana keep you out late. and she says nah i gots nothin to do..
so i say..iight then......and one thing lead to another as the night progressed..
and we hooked up..
b4 we did it she asked me if i liked her..i SERIOUSLY had that good bad angel thing goin on...the good -'dude no! be real about it!! frilz!' and the other was just liek..'give it to her easy son'
so i was like 'yeah..but i am not in no position to have a gf right now..and she said somethin in the area of 'well we can work on that'..
bleh..
and then she came over like 3 nights later..and it all happened again...
but at the end of the night she was like 'Call me!' i said maybe! ill txt if anything!
it really wasnt her..ask around man. who do i call? shit nobody man..i txt if anything and thats like 5 ppl?
so i was like shit..that could turn ugly..
we didnt talk for about a week?
and my friend that knew her comes over and was like dude..so whats the story with you n her?? i told her everything that happened..
and she tells me, that she told her, a whole diff. story and that i pressured her? n what not. iono. i dont evin care i know for DAMN sure i asked her assurance
she said no! and stuff kept happening so i asked again and she said yes.
i asked again. are you SURE cuz im not gona do this if your gona regret it or anything. she said no she wont, its ok.
im not THAAT stupid..
so i was like fuck it man..she can tell ppl what she wants. but to those who actually know me! know it didnt go down like that.
i build my trust with my friends so when situations like that and other shit goes on..they know wtf..
so its whatever! and a group event comes up and guess who happens to be goin out that night also..to the same location as us..
so i go up to her. i give her a hug.
i dont do that akward nonsense...its a waste. so i gave her a hug and said whats up n stuff. and she was shady as shit! so i was like ok. thats the end. thats it.
and my friend that knew her goes n says hey..and she tells her that she just wants to forget it all happened..
shit that works for me man..
the end..
well
i evaluate that whole situation..and thats the most typical thing ive ever done..
and thats just not me man..im better then that..
so in the midst of all that..i was just like man..shit aint right...
and i hook up with the person i lost it to like a week after that......
i couldnt evin get it up to her man...sorry if you didnt wana hear that detail........but that is just like a slap in the face...nah fuck that.
thats a kick in the nuts..i was just like man...wtf am i evin doing this for..so after that i was just like man..no more!
seriously.
no more..its been a month..and im Sufferinn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i gota tame the monster..cuz mosta the ppl that knew what was goin on..not encouraged it..but were ok with it..NOTHING AGAINST them but..damn. haha can i get a slap on the hand? i was wrong! i was a monster man..i dont regret nothin..im glad it all happened cuz if i hadn realized what the eff i was doin..i'd end up hurtin somebody..and thats not me! soo.....
the monster has been tamed for a month..and its like king kong after whats her name got stolen...RAGE!!!!! hahahhaha oh man...shit..
im not a slut anymore
this blog is nuts..thanks for reading...i may make this a private one if i dont feel comfortable with you folks reading..
we'll see!
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