bestfriendship

i dont know how to start it. haha. im just laying here knowing what i want to say but not what to say.haha
i say 'im not looking for bestfriendship'
im not..i dont need it. i mean i have a few friends that are HIIGHHH up there
but not exactly blaine jimmy and megan
i mean those 3..wow..
theres NO way......you can relive or go thru or just..experiance all that we have in the 5 years that we've gone thru together..we dont all talk much now but compared to what we all went thru in those years..theres no way its over.

i mean..i couldnt imagine somebody else taking there position..theres no way
'irreplaceable' but really.
whoelse would i want to talk to everynight as much as i did with megan about the irony of our love lives and what not..shes one of the few that know EVERYTHING about me.. and just..everything


or going 2 years of being a str8 nice asshole to someone..making life a bit harder for him to defending and standing by him for the next 2 over the same bs that i was doing for those 2 years prior and being the best of friends you could imagine and standing by him 100% when things got Real hard to deal with..and following along with the newest obsticles life throws at him and watching him overcome it and SOOO much more
yeah the hell right!


and Jimmy..wow..haha man..

theres just SO much..
and i wouldnt take back a second of any of it..those people helped me so much..im so greatful for them. i miss them so much now..but things'll HAVE to change..'ts only right.

thats not all i had to say..its just really uneasy to type..i dont really know why. it was all so simple when i was thinking it.. but i felt i had to type what i could just..because