i took one laast good look arooound

so many unusual sounds

whats up world.
its been a few months eh?
shit is well.
ive been wanting to blog or a few months now. haha but was never compelled..
i doubt this'll even be a good one. haha idk
wth's up?
im still me man, how about you? haha yeh
anyways..
the wifeology comes home in like 10 muddafckn hours! yayyaya im very excite! haha
man..april was like the last time i blogged? shhiiittt!!
haha so much so little its all the same.
im on my new imac gFIZZLE!. so amazingly worth the Dough man. i tossed 4g of ram in this bitch with the AMAZING help from newegg. and i have 2 externals attached n what not. this bitch is a powerhouse. hahahahha im gonna stop referring to it as a bitch because it quite a nice device..hahahahahh anyways.
since the purchase i have become so much more productive in editing that im thinking about putting this blog on pause and then just posting everything ive edited/re-edited because i have learned over the course of the last few months that people actually enjoy my shit. and thats all i need to keep me goin..thank you to all that have said something positive about my 'pointless photography'. thats what i call it for now because i do it for -the people-
so anyways...im still workin at cshitty. its gettin pretty shitty there. but the people are more amazing than ever. they really are another family to tend to. haha yehh, i needa new job. and its crazy how att has ALMOST become another apple situation..shits crazy. hahah pretty cool..but then at the same time depressing. haha but moving on.

so ive been watching and im in fckn season 6 part 2 and MAN oh Muthafckn MAN! this show is amazing!!!! hahahaah wooow SO well written..im prolly gonna wanna watch the whole series again after im done cuz now i Hella know alll thats going on man. SO amazing. hahaha its awesome to watch it now too that its all over, so i dont have to wait til nxt week to see a new epi. haaha YESS. ahha but nah. im thinkin im gonna get started on 30 rock after i finish the sopranos..haha tv is Fresh in HD. haha yehh..
so yeh.. whats the stitch? im listening to common, america..i love that guy. haha "no homo" that phrase is garbage. but pretty pop. thanks to lil wayney.

whelp im running out of unimportant things to talk about..haha
which brings me to whats Most important..

my goddess.
haha your All dying to meet her. i know. and i understand.
your time Will come! i promise! because she'll be around for my forever. haha and thats a guarantee until decided otherwise. shes the most definite keeper around these parts of the veg. haha, no really though, she is perfect quality grade A+ 100% woman. and im Madd lucky to have her. the shits crazy snig. she comes home tomorrow around noon and shes gonna spend time with her fam. the right thing to do. but tmoro night, if things go right she'll be mine for a little. and MAN! im gonna show her so much love. i have spent the last 2 weeks just trying to occupy my time with this, that, and the third and EVERYsingleTHING that i have done. she was on my mind. everything from sitting here editing, to watching shit, to cooking shit, to driving somewhere, to grocery shopping, to people watching, to Ultimately just hanging with friends..its funny, becuase for the last 2 weeks people ask me 'so how are you and your gf?' or 'so wheres your gf?" and im all 'effin Scotland yoe!!' theyre like wth? and then i explain that shes scottish and columbian and then its ALLL good from there :) haha. a Gorgeous mix she is. shit man, we have our little disputes. but shit ill be Damned if they dont make us THAT much stronger. granted us being THE strongest couple out there at the moment. ill stand by that statement with the certain stipulations that come into play that im Def. not getting into here. hahaa all im saying is, if you dont know, then dont worry about it :) haha. but anyways..ManohMan..that girl..she whispered that Astonishing 3 word combination, when she kissed me goodbye before she left and shit..i broke! haha
ALLLL that shit i talk about love and it being the devil and all that negative jazz.. well ill still talk it! haha but i Guarantee that im just telling you that to be humorous. haha because shit. im a sucker for love at the moment..the shit feels good and i am in love with Ms. Sarah E. Canon haha Yess! just like that..haha but shit..im not falling blindly here, thats for damn sure. i have had the last 6 years of my life to think about the right person for me, and everything there is to me allowing myself to fall in love with someone and man..that girl..My Dame :) haha, she is it. and i am greatful that i never rushed into anything with anyone for the sake of being burned out on love like many others that are out there..
shit. i feel bad, yanno? that fckn sucks. but all i have to say about that is, patience is everything there is to that. you cant go Find the person thats right for you.. just watch flavor of love and maybe you'll get what im saying?
nah. i doubt it. haha i just compared finding your 'one' to mthafckn flavor of love. haha but really. think about it. searching for the 'one' can be disastrous,uneventful and possibly deeply heartbreaking search, only to find out that its a SICK world out there and then lose faith that there isnt someone out there for you..
nah fck that. theyre there. they just dont know it, and you dont either. you just gotta let that shit happen..haha ok ok im done here. im not gonna sit n tell YOU how to live..haha were all different and im not one for dictation..although i live in america. hahahah
PFFFT!

Otherwise was Decided. in the beginning of august.
i lost out big time eh
(7-03-08)















watch it. and if you still stand by this country....
whelp. im not a politic. GO

YESSS! hahaha you wanna know what got my vote?

YESS! that-is-my-SHIT! hahahhahahahhahah
and then there was the monumental

WHEW! my man barack.. haha. so yeh..i am voting for him because hes hip. otherwise, i dont really care.
oh no! maybe you should read it again? because i dont. it isnt a big deal to me. but like i tell myself before ever getting into it, im no politic.
i digress :)
hahaha

so i started this blog at 2:20 am, and it is now 4:13 and i have found myself going back and editing a buncha shit for this slideshow that i am soon to present to you folks :)
its nothin amazing..i see now that i only have like 40 pics? thats kinda daffy, but owell. my collection shall build..

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Get your own

yeh..

so fish lake is coming up pretty soon..and i actually dont want to go this year..and im really leaning towards not doing so..haha but at the same time i feel guilty, and would rather avoid the shit that i will get for the next 2 years of my life for deciding against it. yeh im a pushover. but i dare you to take advantage ;) haha
BUT on the flip...the photology would be MAD Ill if i were to actually take this trip..so far that is the only benefit of doing so..other than that..the family..but thats not much of a benefit anymore because its all..idk..paper smiles and bland conversation and opportunities to do work on my open box phenom that doesnt exist anymore..haahahha ok ok my fam isnt horrible or anything! im greatful to have em all..but when it comes to fam events..i think im just gonna find something else to do.. haha but then at the same time..my brother is the shit. hahahh i love that man. i never really realized up until recently that, that man plays a MAJOR part in my life, although i only see him but once or twice ever week or so. but man its like the ice cream man! hahaah
hahahah ok its not that serious..but at the same time. haha i Love his presence.. man.
hes 12 years older than me right? haha so back in the day..he was 17, and i was 5..and he was going thru his hs years, and i was up and coming....and we had to sleep in the same bed n shit..hahaha maan oh man..he had funny relationships..
but i digress..haha

so dude! check out this myspace app
http://www. myspace. com/music_app
its bloody brilliant to me because i like that people can see what im listening to at this very moment. haha idk. it keeps me goin like a snickers..
haha...so yeh..hmm....
whats up america? nm here, you?
whos all excited for school coming up?
im sure not! hahaha
i actually Really dont want to go back, and am still debating..
so im thinking ill fill the fafsa, and if they send money then ill think about taking a class, and if not, then i wont go..
i Really Really dont want to go back..its such an inconvenient waste of time..i know i said all this last semester, but now that i think about it..i hate doing stuff i dont want to and this is something that i feel pretty strongly about. haha idk. its just a waste..i dont know what i want to be! i dont want an associates in graphic design, or photography or many others. i understand! people want to see me excel in photography. but at the same time..i have come to realize now that photography is an art, even for people like me that arent SUPER FCKN 1337 at the shit like http://bobbityjones.deviantart.com/

and someday i Will make money from it. But for now.
practice makes perfect ;) and i have a Major issue with being told what to take pictures of, Despite my 'style' and then having to be critiqued on it. i LOVE criticism. it can Only make you better. but then in that situation..its like..telling Andy Warhol to draw some shit thats more of a Van Gogh type of ordeal. now im not comparing myself to ANYTHING NEAR any of them. but the situation, i feel relates easiest to that. and i dont support the pursuit of something that tells me that im Certified in the art of such. yanno?
shit i say ~if you got it, then you got it~
but til then. im still gettin it. haha
BUT! at the same time..i dont wana be looked down upon, or disappoint anyone in that sense
and be looked at/thought of as a quitter.
now you all know me. i could give a fuck less what you think. unless your some people.
so its all whatever. BUT when it comes to college..i feel..idk. i feel that it makes folks feel warm at the hear to hear that a young black man is in college and doing something for his future, and im not being stupid. i really have seen a difference in reaction from people when they hear that im in school as oppose to hearing someone else declare that they are..
but then i have also realized that they all tell me its ok that i dont know what i want to be..
but in reality, the shit isnt ok. im chasing a dream that doesnt exist. haha but then ALSO at the same time. i accepted the fact that i dont have a dream 2 whole years ago when i realized that life isnt that serious to Make myself find something that i think ill like doing in the future, and then Chase that and concur it. that aint me man. i like living and life is what im gonna do.
what does life consist of? breathing and thinking, and then you expand from that.
breathing is something i am greatful of for the 20 years ive been known. and as far as thinking?
shit. i think that i would do exCeptional, working for a corporation that is . i like everything about em. even the iphone, which i dont care too much for. Dont get me wrong, its an amazing phone. but its not all that.
moving on.
haha i have been trying to get into at&t since i was 16 and i am now damn near 20 and i know that i dont have what it takes to pass that pesky personality quiz. i know right?
haha so its not in my hands. it really isnt. the one thing i want most right now, is in someone else's hands and im not gonna push them because hes a big brother to me just like my big bro..hahah but his best friend.. SO anyways..im stuck at ccity with hopes to get a txt or a call from the big guy with good news.
until then!
im interested in a bank job. haha i reached out to megan, that would be call.
and fedex kinkos seems like a funny place to work. therefore i apply every couple months. haahha Damn i suck at getting jobs..
ive only gotten 1 of my 3 on my own, and you know which that was?
hollister. hahah im SURE you can guess why that was cake..
aww..i miss the domino days
:) hhaha what a young bitch i was..hs was Everything

:/
OMG
so i seen jimmy n meg last night. aMAZING. haha it felt so good. blainer was busy, but hey. we'll get em next time.
they waited like 2 fckn hours in the ccity pkg lot for me while i had a store meeting after 8. wtf right? haha but yeah man. we kicked it at the 24 hour starbucks and damn..that was great. much needed time spent with 2 vip in my life coming up.

SO. wheres that leave me? i think i have taken care of all the going on's from the last 3 months? shit..but im gonna think about it.
haha. so i love my blackjack 2 right?
haha i promise i love it! but its time for a new one..mines been dropped a bit too much..
and as a heads up on my nexty :DDD

the Whackberry Bold. hahha
it doesnt come out til later on this year.
but hey! thats what the bidness is. hahaha
yeh..call me spoiled. i work for all this shit so blow on these Dice!

oOH oooh OOH!!!!!

:DDDD YESSS!!!!!!!! WERE ALL VERY EXCITE!! the Whole psg WILL be getting down. i will do work. hahahah
man..
im still a bitta of a nerd..quite prouda it also :)
and speaking on that subject :)
heres some apparel that i am currently interested in investing, but i prolly wont for the time being.
so for starts :@

i know, i know


fresco.


illerr


DEF!


i consider this one cultured..hahahahaha

and my fav. of 2008!

YESS!
and dont you Dare tell me im not! :)
haahaha
kk
so yeah...thats where the interest currently lies..
maybe that'll be my next creddy purchase after the imac is paid in full. ahhaha
oh dont GET me into the credit talk :)
haha i love that shit..
leme tell you man. im getting closer to that amx. haha but i must admit
is quite pleasing!
i wont discuss my score because im not gonna be an asshole about it. but the interest rate i have but is YAYUHHHH status. haha 3.9!!!! shhiiiit i went from 21 to 18 to 3? i love this shit. hahahaa so yeah man. a Sick paying new job is all that is needed and ill be ON the way towards that tundra :)) hahaha and a prius for the gal ;)) hahahhahaa okokok
ive gone on too long here. you guies have a day to live!
alrighty then!
iloveyou all. thank you for living and being a part of my life somehow, being that you've read this. i appreciate you for taking the time annnd i will TRY to keep you all more updated than 3 months deep. haha it isnt fair to you or myself, because it Will be amazing to come back and read all this in 10 years n sht..haha
alright..
til next time :)
later days dood

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its SO fucking hard
OMFG
at this point i'd rather take a firehose..i know those didnt last forever...
god man. im trying so hard to stay strong. ive never had to try before..theres NEVER been an issue that could break me..fuck everything. nothing gets to me. its easy to say right? but fuck that. i make sure i stay strong. it isnt hard to..the reason? is because life is too short for dumbshit. and im not even being one of those lifes enthusiasts. i just dont let shit get to me because i know that IM still alive. and until that stops happening.
anything that doesnt kill me is just another bump on the road! fck man. its nothing.
but god...this is....unreal... i dont understand...how someone could have such hatred toward someone shes never really gotten to know..up until now..ive never thought into it for the sake of my composure..but i cant do this..its been 19 years and ive never had someone just..-not like- me so passionately..its scary..it really is.. i didnt do anything man. from the beginning. and its way past the getting in trouble with the parents for something small and them acting like it was major and me Begging! 'i didnt do anything!!!'....i really didnt! this shit hurts so bad man..ive never felt this..i mean im crying for christ's sake...i under stand trials n tribulations..but come on..i mean..
come on..if there is a god...then why so intense? its past a point where theres a lesson to be learned..now im just being beaten..
and im not exaggerating...
this is how it feels..

but further on when the camera is turned away and you can hear sandman murdering spiderman..

i feel so helpless..if i had a chance..i would 1st build the courage. and then write a letter.. at this point..i know it wont help...but god man..i havent even been able to get a word in..this is Such an unfair trial..
i just feel that if life Really is this way out there..then to hell with living. seriously? it isnt worth it. its not worth it at all because if one person is this passionate then there are another million out there that are if not the same..worse! and i wish to never come into contact with them..i hope that i never work for someone that has something against me or 'my kind' as passionately as this..its so unfair.. and i Completely understand to the Fullest extent that 'life isnt fair, deal with it' but man..how do i deal with this? yes, i can turn the other cheek..its been 4 months..shit man my cheeks are getting bruised..my eyes are getting blackened and my teeth are being shattered..
and im not exaggerating..it feel THAT bad inside..i dont show an ounce of it because then she's completely won..
i cant let her win..i cant..i cant let her win..
it isnt worth it.. aside from the fact that i fall for her daughter deeper and deeper everytime she smiles..aside from that...i must prevail..failure is not an option..
im a pretty pushoverable person..but i wont be put through the ground..
i cant quit..

but then the otherside of me is furious..

this fucking bullshit has got to be a fucking joke.
but it isnt. and its fucking disgusting. disGusting, shes the person that stands for everything i speak passionately about when i bother to speak about racism. fucking scum. who the fck are you to judge a whole race, or even just a person. from past experiences? or anything else to that matter. i dont care what "my people" represent. fuck that. fuck them in that case. fuck them for playing to the stereotype and giving all of the others a shitty look.
i have been made one of those 'shitty others' that are nothing like the ""average"". but still get judged with them.
fuck that. thats stupid and unfair and i hate that its going on. i'd really, rather not live. its not worth it..i feel that i am someone that some other people should be like when it comes to certain offenses, and situations. i cant be a role model because no one publicly looks up to me. but ill still be one for myself, so that i can show/teach someone how to become a stronger and more tolerant person inspite of all the bullshit differences in this world. i just want.....peace in my own circle..
and i cant have that..
yes.
this one is for and about me because i am being broken..

i just apologized to my girlfriend for speaking my mind..

what am i?
who am i?
seriously?

April 13, 2008

im so empty right now..
with everything i need..
haha
you ever just...Need to talk to your mom yanno?
i need that right now. but shes sleep..haha and although she NEVER hesitates for a Second to wake me up...im not one to disrupt.

anyways...
here i am..
blogging because its been some time and my people...you.. deserve an update..
im not really in the mood to type right now..i should prolly talk into a voice recorder because thats most relevant right now..haha amd its cool to go back and read/listen to shit from forever ago. haha logging...

anyways..
i dont really want to talk about it but people need to know because im pretty done talking about it..and just..done

my biological mother died 2 saturdays ago.
the woman that gave me life. the person i get my humor, smile, walk, run, sleeping habits, happiness and many other features from.
people know that we didnt have much of a relationship..
but we did..wasnt much..but there was still something.
i still told her i loved her at the end of every phone call that would take place every few months..
for the last 19 years..ive watched her go thru HELL. with everything...Everything
sometimes she would talk to me for hours..just talk in circles..something else i get from her. haha but anyways..
she would just talk about issues..haha she knew everybodies problems in our family and she'd just talk about em. i never had any when it came to her because i didnt like talking..she was so behind i just never spoke to her like a regular person..well..towards the end..but anyways
a while back i realized that for making it all this way..shes a pretty strong woman for still living..and dealing with..Life in general..as shitty as it always was or got..
she still lived and i completely respected that and i always thought about calling and telling her that because i know that would help..
i never did..
its too late now..
im not beating myself up over it or nothing..i just know where i fcked up.
im not blaming myself or anything either..im just aware of things i could have done to help..
shes gone now..
she died in her sleep.
fell asleep at 1p, someone went to check on her at 9p and no response.
the end...
i know the rest of the story but im just done telling it..
i just dont want to hear 'im sorry' anymore..i just dont.
im sure i sound selfish right now but hell..im done. im fine. im greatful of all condolences from every and anyone but im just done..
and she is SO much better off..SO much.just..better..she no longer has to deal with the bullshit this life/world throws at her.

and life has gone back to normal again..


im talking to tamari(e) right now and its cool to know that were still cool after all the bs we've been through. haha alot. but anyways. im telling her my problems..i NEVER do that with anyone..but hey, i am only human yanno. haha
anyways.

i hate my job. its trash and im more than greatful of my 20 hours.
ive been denied to my face like 3 times about the hours.
'you did not ask for 20 hours! you just got cut'
yeah, im sure of it.
40 hour checks pay the bills and thats all that counts.
i dont eat anyways. hahahah ;)
haha so yeah..i have time lately now america because im done feeling like i live there and am tired of bustin my ass and no thanks.
ill prolly get over it come summer though. haha blah

i still have a girlfriend america.
2 months now.
YAYUHHH. longest relationship yet for me. haha whew! going tha DISTANCE!!!!


so im still laying here..of course.haha
alone. untired. bored.
but fine with it. i have good mind control. i dont support depression.

so yeh..these last 2 weeks have been something else america. and i realized that ive lost touch with a bunch of people...but am fine with it..the rotation is always changing..
i also havent had the time though..family and work and FUCKING school just ALL in the fucking way. i had NO time to think.
but i did it..






i started this blog to do alot of venting and complaining and whining..
but damn..i just dont want to.
i need a good cry...i didnt get one at the funeral because alot was going on in my mind..i was so conflicted.
i HATE funerals i really srsly do...but then what kind of monster would i be had i not shown up?
shouldnt i WANT to go, and pay/show my respect?
no. i dont like funerals. i dont even want one for myself whenever my time comes.
i dont want preaching and boring music.
i want happiness and laughter.
and thats for serious.

im done with this blog. this probably wont go public

ps.
i love my new phone :))))

Feburary 14, 2008

and all is whell..on the rocks..
i havent had the time or the urge, nor the passion to sit down and blog like i have in the past..
but whats frilz is..life has been absolutely Perfect
and its just crazy..there arent any struggles...wtf?
no struggle..i am completely happy and am savoring every breathing moment of it..i feel bad for being able to recognize the fact that there is nothing is wrong because i know that there are Many out there that arent as fortunate..and i feel for em all..

so anyways..lets evaluate these aspects of life shall we?

Family,Economics,Education,Politics, and Religion

Family: i have about 3..haha but anyways! rents are BUGGINN!!! seeeeeriously! everything is fine but the small shit..like coming in my room at fckn 7 when my alarm goes off at 8 to tell me that i have to work?
are-you-FUCKING-with me!!!!!!??????? ooooomg! i straight up locked my door the other day and sure enough they got thru that shit at SIX AM!!!!! just to find out if i'd watched the tv last night because it isnt working..i blew it off because i didnt and i heard the bitch working like 10 min later..UGH! hahaha and then this sht with me goin to reno..WOOOOOW you'd think i'd married somebody they hated or something. they've done EVERYTHING in the power of Persuasion! wooow fck. haha owell though im grow(i)n and there aint much they can control over me anymore..not to sound like a punkass teenager. haha but its for sure..its just courtesy to respect theyre requests..but that can only be stretched so thin. haha owells im over it..but ill NEVER be over this forever obligations that my moms keeps throwing at me..like i owe people something? i dont owe nobody SHIT..except visa..haha but thats for a good cause..my credit. haha other than that! fck whatcha heard. she'll tell people ill do shit for them without even asking me!!!! look america.
I GAVE UP ON COMPUTERS! i dont think ive ever fixed one before..i only thought i did..but damn. i always thought i could but no way. haha fckn a. i just know how to troubleshoot a few problems and maybe solve a few of them. but im no fckn technition..hell
im gona buy an imac after i finish paying off my d40. haha im done with this bullshit! my computer was hottshit from 04-07. haha now this shit wont even youtube good. haha and i dont even want to build a new one. i just want this loud power suckin bitch out of my life. hahaha imac's are so..simple! haha owell
anyways hella yeah man! im over it.

Economics: Working class Civilian. i am unhappily employed at circuit city. i hate the place but i LOOVE the people! that shits family..haha and then theres at&t. i supposedly have the job. im in there like swimwear. but ive been through this before. haha nothings official til its official baby. as MUCH as i want this job..i cant have another apple happening..people are still asking me 'so hows apple'
woow! that shits the worst! haha but yeah circuit shitty is Hell lately..but pretty cool. i hate going in at 10a and getting off at 6p and feeling like my days just WHAY over! and then theres the 2p-10p shift and i hate that one because its like damn...there goes the rest of my day. haha i'd much rather open so i have the rest of the night to do as i please but haha who's satisfied anymore these days..haha anyways i love to hate the place and canNot wait until at&t becomes official..i Really hope that comes through for me. haha because wow..i can see myself turning that shit into a career.. and then work ccity for a couple hours a week and then use that check to pay my bills..DAAMN that would be nice. haha and then folks are like 'well what about photography?' ?? thats a hobby baby! haha srsly though..im more of a fan of a steady workflow..an employer with a set pay period. and im still new to all of this photog shit..kinda haha but people like my shit..so therefore i like to provide something for my people to look at..eyecandy like. haha and then there are those that are like 'you paid 600 for that camera and you dont want to turn it into a profession?' no.. i dont. haha and then its like 'arent you majoring in it?' haha i schure am. i like learning about that shit. who cares if it wont get me anywhere. and Also! the student aide is Peaceful..hahaha thats as nice as ill put it...hahaha makes me want to adopt so that kid can get it!
anyways..haha fck it..im rambling

Education: whaack.. hahaha my sociology teacher is whay cool but..i cant tell anymore haha idk whats due and whats not? and whats important? she just talks all day and acts like were suppose to be on top of this shit when she barely gives details..haha owell though im not alone so im ok with it. haha its hilarious my neighbor sits next to me in the class..that happened last semester. haha i sat down and she was like 'HEY NEIGHBOR!' we just started laughin.. hahahah and its cool because ill leave to class and then ill see her car so i honk and then txt her 'your late!' haha its great and i love it..
and then theres photography...its cool cool haha im learnin what i need to take those fligh pictures..thats about all i have to say about that..its not that fun of a class yet.

Politics...................
'a politic, i am not' is what i wrote in my notebook last week. and i would type this shit out that i scanned in....but i just dont feel like it right now and i know that if i dont do it now..then it'll never happen..haha therefore i just scanned the page in

and as far as Religion with me..:


and that is where i stand in both of those areas. haha
moving on..
i. Have a girlfriend america..and she is amazing. im not gonna go into story though. haha her name is Sarah and shes a great addition and a Major contribution to the reason my life is perfect as of yet.

Finances!
haha i LOOVE talking about money..
i just wana talk about my plans as of now so i can look back at this shit like i always do..haha
i am Currently: paying on my us bank card for the d-40x i picked up in dec.
and then sometime in june i will transfer the balances to my bank of america cred, and cancel that card because the interest is fckd. and then pay that bitch off.
After thats all done and paid off..i will apply for either the Discovery cashback bonus card OOR the sexy bank of america: American Express card.
ill have both of those sometime by the end of this year hopefully.
and with one of those ill have enough to grab that imac and rid this pc..haha YAYUHHH thats as far as im planning as of now (2-08)
and THEN for schure whats goin on next is a COD (Certificate Of Deposit) ima put 2 down on it and let that shit sit. so that way it'll build the interest and i can honestly say 'i dont got shit!' cuz i Frilz dont like being asked for money..i dont get the shit back! haha so im forever broke.. but yeah im over it already. im just ready to gain and build that creddy! haha because ULTIMATELY! im saving for a
OOOOOOOMG!!!!! tell me that bitch isnt sexy! hah i Will own by 2k10 or 11. haaha but that'll remain a dream for now. im still small time. haha as will i always be..just with big plans and expensive taste..



sooo.....what is there to talk about...its been 2 months since ive updated the people of _
idk. i hella want to work at AT&T with mitch (my bro's bestfriend)
ive been bustin his balls since like september about getting me in that bitch and that was the end..haha til christmas! where he was like 'yeah man, if theres anything you need just tell me!' so i was like GET ME IN NEGRO!!!!
and then he hits me up at the end of jan and is like yoe..sometime in feb im gona get you an interview..
whelp..sofar its feb14, and im in the same position i was in with apple....but with a bit more of assurance..but im not buildin my hopes yet. haha fck that noise, i HATE letdown. haha anyways...
im 19 america..its been a great almost 6 months.....SO much has happened its amazing..and i am SOO greatful of all of it..good and bad..
heh. what more can i talk about? haha i dont want to stop now! i just want to share it all! but i kind of have..

so im in a relationship..its pretty cool because i can be me around her..and i always told people that i was searching for perfection. not the perfect woman but the perfect girl for me! someone whom i can be comfortable around me and vice versa..im all about comfort and mutuality. trust isnt an issue for me.. haha owells..

music is still at a stand still for me..lupe's cd is the hottest for now..i had to kick it old school and bumb some gangstarr n shit. haha but im pretty excited for the panic, and the hush sound cd..i was prety excited for the jack johnson cd but..ehhhh...and im falling back into the wu-tang craze. haha right where i started a year ago. haha owell though. as long as i have something to listen to...

so my next phone will be the:


it's been good with the pearl but fuck! this shit freezes up WAAAAAAAY toooo much! and other problems..but one things for schure..im gona send it in for a new one thanks to the warrenty service..hahaha and then i'll keep it for backup! because i always give my past phones away and i Should have something to show for all these phones ive been thru..haha lets list em.....(this should be interesting)

Nokia 3520 (March 04-Dec04)

this phone got FUCKED up! ahhaha but NEVER failed on me..Ever! prolly the best one ever..
next is the
Motorola v600 (Dec 04-aug 05)

this phone just completely fell apart on me..but was Definitely my first flip phone and it served well..

next was the:

LG F9100 (aug 05-aug 05)

that phone was Bomb for 3 out of the 5 days i had it..haha but lg phones are waay too basic for me...Seriously. the txting was Bomb but that was it..even the phonebook sucked..hahhaa

next came the
DUNNUUNUNNN
Motorola Razr V3 (aug 05-nov 06)

that bitch was SOOOOOOOOOOOO HOT WHEN IT CAME OUT!!!!!!!!!! whew! that was the shit to have. hahaha it originally dropped at like 500 with no plan......................prolly the worst phone ive ever owned..

Sony Ericsson W810i (nov 06- Sep 07)

2nd best phone for Definitely..maybe even the Best..but the speaker was the biggest down fall....the piece that made it a phone..sucked. hahaha but damn that phone is still ill.. i txtd like a fckn txt maniac on that piece..

after that came the
Blackberry Pearl 8100 (sept 07-mar 08?)

good phone......
freezes WAY too much! locks up horribly.. and the camera is the worst by Far..

so now your thinking "did he srsly just review his whole phone history?"
yeah..i did. haha i never really thought about doing it but im pretty glad i did..its good shit to look back on yanno? haha ok man..im done. its been like 2 hours...but hey! now you know wtfs up as of nowish. haha
alright my fellow americans. i love you and thank you for reading.
stay safe please..
Speak to me! im never too busy!

piece up!
:)

April 13, 2008

and all is whell..on the rocks..
i havent had the time or the urge, nor the passion to sit down and blog like i have in the past..
but whats frilz is..life has been absolutely Perfect
and its just crazy..there arent any struggles...wtf?
no struggle..i am completely happy and am savoring every breathing moment of it..i feel bad for being able to recognize the fact that there is nothing is wrong because i know that there are Many out there that arent as fortunate..and i feel for em all..

so anyways..lets evaluate these aspects of life shall we?

Family,Economics,Education,Politics, and Religion

Family: i have about 3..haha but anyways! rents are BUGGINN!!! seeeeeriously! everything is fine but the small shit..like coming in my room at fckn 7 when my alarm goes off at 8 to tell me that i have to work?
are-you-FUCKING-with me!!!!!!??????? ooooomg! i straight up locked my door the other day and sure enough they got thru that shit at SIX AM!!!!! just to find out if i'd watched the tv last night because it isnt working..i blew it off because i didnt and i heard the bitch working like 10 min later..UGH! hahaha and then this sht with me goin to reno..WOOOOOW you'd think i'd married somebody they hated or something. they've done EVERYTHING in the power of Persuasion! wooow fck. haha owell though im grow(i)n and there aint much they can control over me anymore..not to sound like a punkass teenager. haha but its for sure..its just courtesy to respect theyre requests..but that can only be stretched so thin. haha owells im over it..but ill NEVER be over this forever obligations that my moms keeps throwing at me..like i owe people something? i dont owe nobody SHIT..except visa..haha but thats for a good cause..my credit. haha other than that! fck whatcha heard. she'll tell people ill do shit for them without even asking me!!!! look america.
I GAVE UP ON COMPUTERS! i dont think ive ever fixed one before..i only thought i did..but damn. i always thought i could but no way. haha fckn a. i just know how to troubleshoot a few problems and maybe solve a few of them. but im no fckn technition..hell
im gona buy an imac after i finish paying off my d40. haha im done with this bullshit! my computer was hottshit from 04-07. haha now this shit wont even youtube good. haha and i dont even want to build a new one. i just want this loud power suckin bitch out of my life. hahaha imac's are so..simple! haha owell
anyways hella yeah man! im over it.

Economics: Working class Civilian. i am unhappily employed at circuit city. i hate the place but i LOOVE the people! that shits family..haha and then theres at&t. i supposedly have the job. im in there like swimwear. but ive been through this before. haha nothings official til its official baby. as MUCH as i want this job..i cant have another apple happening..people are still asking me 'so hows apple'
woow! that shits the worst! haha but yeah circuit shitty is Hell lately..but pretty cool. i hate going in at 10a and getting off at 6p and feeling like my days just WHAY over! and then theres the 2p-10p shift and i hate that one because its like damn...there goes the rest of my day. haha i'd much rather open so i have the rest of the night to do as i please but haha who's satisfied anymore these days..haha anyways i love to hate the place and canNot wait until at&t becomes official..i Really hope that comes through for me. haha because wow..i can see myself turning that shit into a career.. and then work ccity for a couple hours a week and then use that check to pay my bills..DAAMN that would be nice. haha and then folks are like 'well what about photography?' ?? thats a hobby baby! haha srsly though..im more of a fan of a steady workflow..an employer with a set pay period. and im still new to all of this photog shit..kinda haha but people like my shit..so therefore i like to provide something for my people to look at..eyecandy like. haha and then there are those that are like 'you paid 600 for that camera and you dont want to turn it into a profession?' no.. i dont. haha and then its like 'arent you majoring in it?' haha i schure am. i like learning about that shit. who cares if it wont get me anywhere. and Also! the student aide is Peaceful..hahaha thats as nice as ill put it...hahaha makes me want to adopt so that kid can get it!
anyways..haha fck it..im rambling

Education: whaack.. hahaha my sociology teacher is whay cool but..i cant tell anymore haha idk whats due and whats not? and whats important? she just talks all day and acts like were suppose to be on top of this shit when she barely gives details..haha owell though im not alone so im ok with it. haha its hilarious my neighbor sits next to me in the class..that happened last semester. haha i sat down and she was like 'HEY NEIGHBOR!' we just started laughin.. hahahah and its cool because ill leave to class and then ill see her car so i honk and then txt her 'your late!' haha its great and i love it..
and then theres photography...its cool cool haha im learnin what i need to take those fligh pictures..thats about all i have to say about that..its not that fun of a class yet.

Politics...................
'a politic, i am not' is what i wrote in my notebook last week. and i would type this shit out that i scanned in....but i just dont feel like it right now and i know that if i dont do it now..then it'll never happen..haha therefore i just scanned the page in

and as far as Religion with me..:


and that is where i stand in both of those areas. haha
moving on..
i. Have a girlfriend america..and she is amazing. im not gonna go into story though. haha her name is Sarah and shes a great addition and a Major contribution to the reason my life is perfect as of yet.

Finances!
haha i LOOVE talking about money..
i just wana talk about my plans as of now so i can look back at this shit like i always do..haha
i am Currently: paying on my us bank card for the d-40x i picked up in dec.
and then sometime in june i will transfer the balances to my bank of america cred, and cancel that card because the interest is fckd. and then pay that bitch off.
After thats all done and paid off..i will apply for either the Discovery cashback bonus card OOR the sexy bank of america: American Express card.
ill have both of those sometime by the end of this year hopefully.
and with one of those ill have enough to grab that imac and rid this pc..haha YAYUHHH thats as far as im planning as of now (2-08)
and THEN for schure whats goin on next is a COD (Certificate Of Deposit) ima put 2 down on it and let that shit sit. so that way it'll build the interest and i can honestly say 'i dont got shit!' cuz i Frilz dont like being asked for money..i dont get the shit back! haha so im forever broke.. but yeah im over it already. im just ready to gain and build that creddy! haha because ULTIMATELY! im saving for a
OOOOOOOMG!!!!! tell me that bitch isnt sexy! hah i Will own by 2k10 or 11. haaha but that'll remain a dream for now. im still small time. haha as will i always be..just with big plans and expensive taste..



sooo.....what is there to talk about...its been 2 months since ive updated the people of _
idk. i hella want to work at AT&T with mitch (my bro's bestfriend)
ive been bustin his balls since like september about getting me in that bitch and that was the end..haha til christmas! where he was like 'yeah man, if theres anything you need just tell me!' so i was like GET ME IN NEGRO!!!!
and then he hits me up at the end of jan and is like yoe..sometime in feb im gona get you an interview..
whelp..sofar its feb14, and im in the same position i was in with apple....but with a bit more of assurance..but im not buildin my hopes yet. haha fck that noise, i HATE letdown. haha anyways...
im 19 america..its been a great almost 6 months.....SO much has happened its amazing..and i am SOO greatful of all of it..good and bad..
heh. what more can i talk about? haha i dont want to stop now! i just want to share it all! but i kind of have..

so im in a relationship..its pretty cool because i can be me around her..and i always told people that i was searching for perfection. not the perfect woman but the perfect girl for me! someone whom i can be comfortable around me and vice versa..im all about comfort and mutuality. trust isnt an issue for me.. haha owells..

music is still at a stand still for me..lupe's cd is the hottest for now..i had to kick it old school and bumb some gangstarr n shit. haha but im pretty excited for the panic, and the hush sound cd..i was prety excited for the jack johnson cd but..ehhhh...and im falling back into the wu-tang craze. haha right where i started a year ago. haha owell though. as long as i have something to listen to...

so my next phone will be the:


it's been good with the pearl but fuck! this shit freezes up WAAAAAAAY toooo much! and other problems..but one things for schure..im gona send it in for a new one thanks to the warrenty service..hahaha and then i'll keep it for backup! because i always give my past phones away and i Should have something to show for all these phones ive been thru..haha lets list em.....(this should be interesting)

Nokia 3520 (March 04-Dec04)

this phone got FUCKED up! ahhaha but NEVER failed on me..Ever! prolly the best one ever..
next is the
Motorola v600 (Dec 04-aug 05)

this phone just completely fell apart on me..but was Definitely my first flip phone and it served well..

next was the:

LG F9100 (aug 05-aug 05)

that phone was Bomb for 3 out of the 5 days i had it..haha but lg phones are waay too basic for me...Seriously. the txting was Bomb but that was it..even the phonebook sucked..hahhaa

next came the
DUNNUUNUNNN
Motorola Razr V3 (aug 05-nov 06)

that bitch was SOOOOOOOOOOOO HOT WHEN IT CAME OUT!!!!!!!!!! whew! that was the shit to have. hahaha it originally dropped at like 500 with no plan......................prolly the worst phone ive ever owned..

Sony Ericsson W810i (nov 06- Sep 07)

2nd best phone for Definitely..maybe even the Best..but the speaker was the biggest down fall....the piece that made it a phone..sucked. hahaha but damn that phone is still ill.. i txtd like a fckn txt maniac on that piece..

after that came the
Blackberry Pearl 8100 (sept 07-mar 08?)

good phone......
freezes WAY too much! locks up horribly.. and the camera is the worst by Far..

so now your thinking "did he srsly just review his whole phone history?"
yeah..i did. haha i never really thought about doing it but im pretty glad i did..its good shit to look back on yanno? haha ok man..im done. its been like 2 hours...but hey! now you know wtfs up as of nowish. haha
alright my fellow americans. i love you and thank you for reading.
stay safe please..
Speak to me! im never too busy!

piece up!
:)