god i miss her..

4th blog of the night and im feeling fiery.
ok not really.
just uber mega lonely.
and in need.

but!
its just me.
my imac.
phone.
camera.
and blogger as of yet.

im playing with the layout by hand.
i fckn hate html.
its so nerdy and computery yanno?
fuck man i have work tmoro :((
i need that new york life..
i need the culture.
the life.
the...ME

this wreck right here. it aint for the faint of heart.

so im gonna watch a super hero movie tonight..
so i can hopefully escape for the 2.5 hours that it'll have me..
i hope strongly for an escape because im not tired.
jesus. i wish i didnt have a voice in my head.
or sad memories.
omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgom AHHHHH


SOMETHINGS GOTTA GIVE!!!!!!!!!!!
my head literally spins at times.
but i cant spend 20 hrs a day AWAY from home. that isnt fair to the ones that miss me the most..

imfineimfineimfineimfineimfine

i havent spoken a word in over an hour now!!!!!!!
i havent even sang a song lyric!!!
whats going on? im gonna feel so stupid tomorrow..
but at the same time......getting through these nites is getting rough! man!

omfg...

i made that picture on a night like this...
i took like 50 of them, and.


fuck you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
god im so not this weird

god: ~