i am a patient person

i am patient so that i will receive the things that i feel i deserve in life..
i was patient to find the one that made me happiest.
and everything was perfect.
everything about it.her.us
the struggles only gave it all a reason..
i never thought id have to watch her be happy with someone else bcause i thought that i made her happiest...
it hurts so goddamn bad to be wrong.
ill never be good enough.
its so crazy man.
its depressing in so many ways..
why am i not worth the effort.
i try so hard to be different. and just..right.
but its wrong man.
im not ever going to change who i am and
that can only mean that ill remain the Resistible.
the one worth letting go.
the best friend one could ask for.
Danny Ray

why arent I worth fighting for?
worth being in love with

it sucks to realize

How Truely alone you really are.....it sucks because I don't think ill ever find someone
Whom is into me and the slow boring life that I live...
Tonight I go on mu routine drive to the "view" of vegas. Up on los feliz..
And 20 minutes into it I realized how stupidly lame it is to be at such a spot alone..
I instantly turned on my car and drove home...
I hate that about myself, but not enough to change it...
I still like whom I am...it just isn't good enough :(
I'm now watching the godfather before I call it a night with my folie a deux cd..
And it just sucks to realize that no one out there prefers...
Me!

i love.

who the fuck i am!
god!
i wish there were more of me...
JUST THE FUCK KIDDING!!!!!!!
man...
my life is so cool..
fuck it!
theres alot of bullshit that occurs,
but everyday is a new day and everyday not spent in the obituaries is a good day! haha
but anyways...

i wish i worked at at&t

for me giving up's way harder than trying

its a great quote man.
kanye IS an icon..
fck the denyers...
ive nthn to say here...
last night was revolutionary..
it felt like a scene out of a film..but the outcome was all too reality..
thats what sucks about hollywood and reality.
theres a helluva fine line..
and sometimes you just wish it(life) would go the way of the fantasy..
after last night man..
we should be together.

but thats so far fetched. and im not dwelling anymore! im not
but it'd just be nice.. yanno?

i learned early in life that 'life isnt fair, deal with it'
and ive been dealin man.
i deal!
but shit.
cut me some slack

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OMFG! my 21st birthday will consist of

* my 2nd visit to NY

* Being 21

* Jet Blue


* the Jane



ive got alot more planning to do.
but this is a start as of today!

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