friends do come and go..

sometimes you just cant help it..you can do what you can..but if the others just too busy..or has other priorities that are bigger then you..you've no choice but to let em go eah? no theres no 'just try harder' for me. i did what i could and if its meant..they'll come around and if not..it was fun. haha ya know? i mean yeah you go thru alot and sometimes cant imagine things w.o that person..but damn haha if theres nothin much you can do other then force there attn..then you just gotta let em go.

currently pursuing happy(i)ness

pursuing happiness..the movie pursuit of happyness..SO good..i really cant explain..but one thing i will tell..it pointed out that in the dec. of independance
you have the Right to Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.
now i underline the word right and pursuit because well..you have the right to life and liberty..those 2 things are entitled to you..you don

Is it time america?

is it time to go?

should i cut it or keep it?
	cut it!
	keep it!
	omg get rid of it!!
	keep it! keep it!!

Fcuk Censory

but yi know.. i do it.
humans..america..people
im discluding myself when i say 'we' here..
we as humans cannot handle the full on truth. and i think its rediculas but its a way of life.
i keep it real but to an extent. and that extent is my conscience knowing how they'll take what i have to say. and so i alter my words.
its a shitty reality but what can i say..as for public censory..i hate it but it sux because we Have to do it.. without the blurring of some words or actions or there would be a lawsuit.. lawsuits are fucking garbage. shits not evin serious anymore. i wont go into that. i dont evin know where i was at..
all in all though..im not complaining. just expressing

censoring your words for a persons feelings is garbage.
the end

its hard to keep my head up

i have that unwanted feeling..
i cant get a job that i want. they dont want me
i cant get a girl i want. they dont want me
and whoever hears about my rejection or denial..
they make me seem like im the superior..
well..shit man
somethins gotta givee. before i do..
i love my friends.
all of them..but damn..shits hard. i just want a job man. something that i feel i'll enjoy working at..
apple..sony.bestbuy.radioshack.sharper image..brookstone.
hell i'd Settle for kinkos/fedex or abercrombie..
but fuck.
what am i doing wrong man?
same with females..
what the fuck is wrong with them..it isnt me according to every damnd one. all of em. 'your a great guy, you'll find the one' do you not realize that you and the next person tell me the same thing.
effin think about it. if all girls are saying it. then who the fucks going to take the damn risk?

melody did. i fucked up i wish i could go back, we'd have something damn near perfect..but i learn from my fuck ups Mistakes..just dont do it.

but unlike some ppl out there that dont deserve em i dont get 2nd chances..
in some cases A chance. (in general)
because they dont wana lose what we have..why not take the risk man. ok im too important to risk..but man come on man. i dont fight i aint jealous. im random. im fun. parents like me.
you can only have so many best friendships..

but never worry..something america wont see is me with my head down..down on luck.. im like a role model to people. 'your always on top' 'never down' 'you always see the brightside' ppl see that and they go off that 'if he can, i can'
i must stay posi..